Intelligent Design... Access Denied.

I just wanted to briefly mention my grief of the prevention of intelligent design being taught in any school system; Christian and non-Christian. It seems the i.d. community is obviously being bullied by atheists and evolutionists. I sit here with tears in my eyes thinking on how I have found story after story of people being denied the right to learn just as much about intelligent design as any other deeply researched science.
Something in me is really breaking and taken aback by the lack of respect from the percentage of the scientific community opposing i.d. Science is science. I'm upset because the system has been made to where if anyone stands in favor of i.d. in the name of science and science alone, they are cast down and disregarded.
For goodness sake, if someone wants to say that God is the Author of science than fine. If research leads to that or to an intellegent designer then how is that any sweat off the back of a non-believer - because science is still science! What if science points to aliens and ufo's? Everyone has a preconcieved notion but the beauty of science is that it reveals its own story. You never know for sure what you will find!

I must say - the future of this bullying looks very nasty. The sad part is that Christians who desire to learn about intelligent design are limited in what they can learn because it is not allowed to be taught. Yet we are taught our entire educational lives to believe in something that more and more scientists are beginning to doubt (yet this statement is quite debatable by evolutionists).

God my heart is heavy on this topic.

I want to learn both perspectives. I want to know why everytime I look in my anatomy book and my pathology book, I see an intelligent design. I see an intention within the genes, the brain, the entire body. And not just the human body... all species! I see intention within the seasons and structure of the universe. I can not live in this wonderful world and never say that nature, people (faults and all) are not absolute works of art. The big bang, the gaps - all the evo talk with no fossil records to prove any of it... To say that we are constant works of finite chance when science points to so much purpose is questionable. Just as well is the thought of God saying let there be light... and there it was. It sounds crazy from both angles and both outlooks are worth investigation.

It is obvious to me that many evos and atheists see intelligent design as not even worthy of being respectfully studied (by all who choose) because they think that it's research is out of a religious plot. When instead many scientists and non-scientists alike, have come to believe in God or a "higher power" because of the overwhelming evidence of there being an intelligent designer. 

I grew up being taught that science was the freedom to study everything I questioned and an invitation to learn it all if I so desired. I desire to study intelligent design yet if an instructor even comes near to encouraging the topic, he risks losing his career unless he follows directions otherwise. Where is the freedom in that. We can be taught (practically as a truth) in schools that our ancestors are apes, and the teachers are praised. But to present an alternate theory that maybe we were not pointlessly placed in this world, is treated as ignorant and is mocked. We have been taught to think that i.d. puts limits on science. But really it appears to me that evolution already claims to have everything mapped out and is simply hoping to be able to fill in its blanks.

I remember watching Expelled by Ben Stein and thinking he was probably just focusing on extreme cases of blacklisting within the scientific community in regard to those looking into i.d. Surely it wasn't that serious of an issue. Why would anyone want to keep people from exploring various options unless they (supposedly a scientific authority) wanted to control what people think?

How does one question something scientific without being given the opportunity to study multiple theories and scientific scenarios? What are my options as an average young lady who enjoys science and seeks to know more in both directions. Sure. I research online. I read books. I question atheists and Christians to gain perspective. But no matter what I do - no matter what I learn, unless I am able to get a respectable piece of paper of higher learning on my wall, then any positive opinion on i.d. that I would possibly gain may still fall short of consideration and more than likely be mocked. The many respectable scientists who believe in i.d. have eyebrows raised toward them. Why would I expect anything different.

Where is my scientific freedom if what I would like to explore is denied me? I don't mind the ridicule. But let me seek in a professional and respected atmosphere.

Pain...

Pain is something so complex and deep yet can come from the simplest of things; a paper cut, stubbing the toe, biting the tongue... but then that pain, fairly quickly, subsides.

What trips me out is that the most dangerous pain is mental/emotional - even through painful disease. This type of pain runs much deeper - to the core of who we are even if caused by physical pain. It's the type of pain that is also born out of confusion, sin, circumstance, tragedy or even so-called love. Tis the side effect of the fallen nature of man.
There is a plot within this dangerous pain to either get us to greatness within ourselves, or to take over our healthy state of being. And even in sickness there is still victory and power to the glory of God.
So I ponder on this... The Lord says in His Word:

 ²⁰ My son, pay attention to what I say;
   turn your ear to my words.
²¹ Do not let them out of your sight,
   keep them within your heart;
²² for they are life to those who find them
   and health to one’s whole body.
²³ Above all else, guard your heart,
   for everything you do flows from it.
²⁴ Keep your mouth free of perversity;
   keep corrupt talk far from your lips.
²⁵ Let your eyes look straight ahead;
   fix your gaze directly before you.
²⁶ Give careful thought to the^[c] paths for your feet
   and be steadfast in all your ways.
²⁷ Do not turn to the right or the left;
   keep your foot from evil.

Proverbs 4 NIV

So no matter the issue, the true struggle and triumph is to stay focused and keep the Word of the Lord close to the heart where all of the issues of life flow through; guarding our thoughts, utilizing joy, and disciplining our actions. The Word of the Lord is our defense strategy, Lord of the immune system, Comfort, Counsel, peace... Why should we ever turn from His Way? (Rhetorical question of course :o)

Birds Falling Dead In Arkansas? Now Fish (Each By the Thousands)

Here is the most current case that came out today (1/3/11) - this is the follow-up story to the dead birds...now there are dead fish also in Arkansas.






It's weird if nothing else. Check out this video of these birds falling dead over Arkansas neighborhoods. I wonder what the cause is.
In Jersy last year or so the same thing happened but said it was likely caused by seed poisoning that kills birds within a 24 hour period.
There were other instances as well with the causes unknown. Here's a couple of videos about them:

Initial story - 2011 Arkansas case : http://www.aolnews.com/2011/01/02/more-than-1-000-dead-birds-fall-from-sky-in-arkansas/?ncid=webmail





Video of Previous Cases:


There are a couple of crazy things going on out that way actually. I remember a story of the crops down in Mississippi burning up and going bad in certain areas. What made the story so weird was the odd patterning of it all. Who knows... toxic rain...

This Wigamajig

Okay so I bought this wig the other day and I was doubtful about it. I truly despise wigs that make my head look bigger than what it is because I already have a peanuty shape to it. The wig itself is cute. I bought it because they didn't have the one that I wanted and the clerks sold me on an alternative. It's long with the Farrah flips and swoop bangs... just not feeling it and I can't return nor exchange it. I have never felt so regretful about buying a wig!

You know how sometimes people can see you better than you can see yourself? Well this was NOT one of those times. But I took the word of an outsider and now I have to put up with it. And heck, the way I see it, if a person likes their look and they are looking a hot mess and don't know it... leave them alone. As long as they feel super about themselves then what is the harm - as long as they are decently covered I suppose.

The Infamous Zeitgeist Movie

So I really like the Zeitgeist Movies, because they may cause one to question the society we are in today. But also for that same reason, the movie seems to attempt to lead you away into a lack of faith in Christ and more into the faith of the people. I like these videos that attempt to expose a quite possible agenda of those behind Zeitgeist by outlining their backgrounds in faith (or lack of). Also I put up a video of Alex Jones' perception of the movies because, well I just love Alex - he can be so dramatic! I love it! Because I know that he means well and he really shows integrity in finding the facts. He does have a reputation of going overboard though! Lol... but it's always harmless.
Anyway... Here you go: The Truth (?) behind Zeitgeist... you judge.







I figured I'd just throw this one in:

Video of "Scientific Proof of God" & Other Videos

For people who are agnostic or atheist [and genuinely look for proof of God or an Intelligent Creator] or a christian who loves seeing God through science - this video is for you.





"Intelligent Design Documentary"

Feeling Like I've Robbed Myself

Is it just me? My husband told me to go clothes shopping (which is not my favorite thing to do believe it or not). So I go. But as I'm spending money I am reminded of how my old jeans don't look so bad if I simply buy the right boots... or how I really don't need dresses do I? Because every woman should have that little black dress as well. All I need are a few rich looking tops on sale for a few bucks each right (to go with my old jeans and new boots)? Pitiful I guess. Well all I could bring myself to purchase were some nice high heel boots (because they can go with so many looks), and a cocktail dress (aqua and black)... cute but I am keeping the receipt.

I suppose that as a wife and mother of only one (my hubby) bringing in the income, I see where money can so easily go elsewhere... savings, to someone in need, a lingering bill, something for the kids, something for the house, something for the cars, towards a vacation... But I should not forget that as a lady, it is wise and respectful to not avoid my outer appearance - which becomes so easy to do. It has become so easy to go through the day and realize that I had not looked into a mirror all day. A spouses upkeep in my opinion can be just as important as a savings or investment. It is an investment made within marriage that can greatly help to keep the flames going if done respectfully within balance.   

That Girl

That Girl by ImageMaker featuring a boyfriend cardigan

Brian Welch

Brian Welch by ImageMaker on Polyvore.com
formerly of Korn

Musical Hotness!

u can hear his music by clicking the image

some mega cool artists

some mega cool artists by ImageMaker on Polyvore.com

To hear their music click the image

All White Affair

All White Affair by ImageMaker featuring an ivory dress

silver n gold

silver n gold by ImageMaker featuring a slouchy hat

Pink N Whateva's Fashionably Comfy

Pink N Whateva's Fashionably Comfy by ImageMaker featuring topshop tops

I can't help but to still add shorts in the mix! Don't hate me for it. But like I said before, I'm in Arizona and I'm just not convinced that it's time to pack the shorts away!

Naturally Appealing

Naturally Appealing by ImageMaker featuring white jewelry

I am really feeling the clean natural makeup for winter this year. It's so sexy and I sometimes get tired of the night club look.
My advice??? If you are looking to land a relationship... natural is a great way to go because it symbolizes a sweet confidence, trustworthiness and sophistication to a man. And if you love to rock the occasional weave styles then make them believable and as naturally appealing as possible.
And I know this isn't a winter outfit but hey I live in Arizona... I'm talking 65 degrees.

Snow Ready

Snow Ready by ImageMaker featuring a diamond ring

I just wanted to piece some blue, yellow and grey together. Sexy yet covered indoors for the modest woman, and still warm and fashionable outdoors! Add some contrasting leggings and all is well with the cool season. 

Seasonal Guilt and Trueness (is that a word?)

Okay so Thanksgiving is really wonderful! It's the jumping off point to the Christmas season, colors are more grand, and there is fabulous food and deals everywhere!
So exciting!


However I am nagged with the downsides that can catch us all - the temptation of going into debt for wanting to give too much too soon, the guilt of feeling like I'm hurting people every time I cook my pot of mouth watering chit'lins, and postponing things until the last minute reserving my spot in public gridlock.


Tis the season everyone... tis the season. It will be a true blessing that out of all my self-focus, I actually take the time to focus on who and what is more grand... the needs and comforts of others also outside of my own household. And hopefully my children will grow to see through the social misconceptions (presumably for the sake of control and consumption) and will instead learn to nurture the spirit of Christ within themselves through loving, experiencing work and life through His holy Spirit and become fine-tuned in goodness and joy.


... May we all rise above the mediocrity of self and plan with purpose to achieve humility, love, grace, wisdom and peace, to name a few. In the meantime... I need to go and eat some wheat to push any bad cholesterol out of my system from my chit'lins!

Just Saying...

Okay. Over time I have looked through many different faiths, doctrines and philosophies. I must say that atheism must look quite appealing to many when you glance at all of the religious based options. Yet I have found that it even takes faith to be an atheist.


The fact of the matter is that we have all been given a desire to worship and believe in something bigger than ourselves. It just is what it is.

Moms Get No Credit

Glory be to God that he sees the will and work of women. He loves us when we aren't dressed up, speaking well, all put together, tired, and not fitting the desirable dress sizes...

Ministry. The Hustle of All Hustles!

I'm trying to understand why people charge money for supposed Words from the Lord and visions of Hell and Heaven. If it were that important and that true, why on earth would you charge without providing at least a free online method for everyone. Just as freely as one writes something down on paper, one can type and post online just as easily... from home, the library or a friend or family member's house. There are many free websites to post up chapter after chapter. Heck, use blogspot or webs.com! They're free, plus if you want to try and still receive some income you can add ads to your pages and receive money per click. There is simply no excuse for charging people to get this AMAZING, must read info from the Lord Himself.

Now when it comes to needing money to sell your book, be frugal. Make the book a at low price and sell paperback for no more than $10 and then s/h costs... And really you could simply type it out yourself and print it all out 1 or two good times, and make copies as you get order payments in for maybe even $5 a book. There are just so many reasons for not charging... otherwise a stumbling block is created. Trust me, if you tell people that you have kept the book as basically made as possible to keep the book cost down, they will understand and even appreciate you all the more. God is going to bless it anyway.

I watch It's Supernatural and quite often people give these wonderful encounters of the miracles of God and want people to benefit... Then I go to their websites to see how much they charge for their story and it's ridiculous! $100 here, $35 there. Maybe $20. These people don't have a call center, company, staff of more than 3 person staff probably.

And what's so sad, is that these people in turn have the nerve to give scripture to justify their action. I just want someone to PLEASE explain this to me. I genuinely mean this.

Use John Pipers site to see what I mean about providing the word for free.

Challenge to Christians!

~ Are you a Christian?
~ Are you an active Christian?
~ Do you know your biblical history?
~ Can you give a reason for your faith beyond emotion?
~ If you were to get bombarded by someone that challenged your Christian faith, would you have answers and confidence supported by historical and biblical facts?
~ Could you encourage a struggling believer with solid facts?

Of course book knowledge can never substitute properly for God's holy Spirit. But the Bible does say that the holy Spirit brings all things into remembrance. Heck if we don't use wisdom by filling ourselves with the things of God then what?

The Bible says that he that wins souls is wise.
The Bible says that God's people perish for a lack of knowledge.
The Bible also says to not be ignorant of the enemies devices [tools, methods].

Do you confuse questioning God with questioning the society we are in today?

Some topics I desire to look deeper into:
~ The similarities of Jesus and mythical characters
~ The validity of the Bible~ Calvinism and free will. Or should I say Calvinism OR freewill. Which is it and how far does God utilize His sovereignty?

As a fairly young and average Christian lady with only a little biblical training, I will be addressing these topics. I will simply record my findings on essence of things (this blog).

I already have my preconceived thoughts on these topics but like many other Christians, I found that my knowledge was either limited or divided. I can always answer enough to get by for the sake of being right. But my plight here is not to be right but rather, honest, realistic, and thoroughly informative. MY MAIN GOAL is to always challenge Christian believers to not blindly believe and blindly follow. This is what I believe leads to Christians being weak minded as the Bible mentions, easily being lead astray.

Having solid facts doesn't hurt to have when our faith may shake through circumstances. We are not being any less faithful for choosing to educate ourselves in the faith. We educate ourselves in everything else but then come short of the Word of God. Let us change this.